Nightmare

It just all seemed so natural at that time. Me and my friend were running around a gigantic shopping mall with parangs! Yes imagine that?! We went into a shop and started smashing stuff up and turning the place into a disarray. I don't remember hurting anyone though. Soon after we just left and more driven by emotion rather than reason feeling all of this was so fun and exciting at first. But now we were making a beeline for the exit. Unfortunately, policemen were roped in within minutes and we were on a run of our lives. We were nearing the exit when we got captured, literally several policemen immobilising us. We were not handcuffed strangely but led to a place for punishment immediately. Our sentence was 39 strokes of the cane :O I was deeply in mental anguish and regretfully considering what I had done and why I let myself be ruled by my emotions like a typical gangster and not act base on reason. It was a long moment indeed grimacing and mentally preparing for the first stroke. His arm swung and the sound of the cane through the air came to my ears.. My brain seemed to shut down momentarily due to the fear of the physical pain compounded the mental torture I was putting myself through. The cane landed on my butt and I was jolted awake suddenly for no particular reason. It was a nightmare..

Relieve came upon me immediately and I was still feeling the after effects of the dream, the fear the mental weariness etc. It really left a strong impression for me for several minutes or so and maybe thats why I'm sharing it with you now. Btw it was just last night or rather this morning that it happened.

The notable part of this even though its just a dream yes I will still draw a conclusion. Its that how acting on emotions totally in this case became dangerous especially to myself although we don't have to go into how everyone else is affected. Thus the importance to trust in God and build up a strong relationship with him so that when you have strong emotions driving you, let it be positive ones that will drive you towards the kingdom of heaven rather than the gates of hell.

"For I through the law died to the law that I might live to God. I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me." Galatians 2:19-20

I think this song epitomises the feeling of this verse here. You may find it a high calling/challenge but say sometimes we are to contend with soft religion and that may be our downfall. But of course you should decide based on the Holy Spirit conviction in your heart.

Here it is an extract of the song "Living for Jesus":

1. Living for Jesus, a life that is true,
   Striving to please Him in all that I do;
   Yielding allegiance, glad-hearted and free,
   This is the pathway of blessing for me.
   • Refrain:
     O Jesus, Lord and Savior, I give myself to Thee,
     For Thou, in Thy atonement, didst give Thyself for me;
     I own no other Master, my heart shall be Thy throne;
     My life I give, henceforth to live, O Christ, for Thee alone.
2. Living for Jesus Who died in my place,
   Bearing on Calv’ry my sin and disgrace;
   Such love constrains me to answer His call,
   Follow His leading and give Him my all.

Tragedy

Talk about tragedy..

When I first heard about the news some time back I thought "This is a tragedy indeed".

But that of course is from my personal viewpoint. And well I will do what I can to help. Of course that includes prayer.

But I pray we dont interfere with God's will for one learns from experience and having a relationship with Him of God's sweet and pleasing will.

"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12:2

Sorry if you don't understand cos I'm being ambiguous. When the time is right, all things will be made known~

Now for something on the lighter side, Liverpool are now 5th! Yea, I saw the table and felt kinda happy (: Finally they reached the spot for Europe even though its the lower tier they have come a long way from the bottom half of the table~ Next year they will challenge for the Premier League title! And this time let it not be just words mm..

A short extract of a convo I had..

Friend: I wish its always holiday

Me: haha then make sure you get to heaven

Friend: im really looking forward for that

Me: excellent (: let's bring all our friends there

Friend: yeah.. i hope every one will going there..

Me: yes though we can make our hope into action and tell them about it

Friend: hehe correct, spread the gospel

Well thinking about heaven, doesn't that make you excited?

If you want to get somewhere truly with all your heart wont you do anything you can to make sure you get there?

Now what is holding you back from tossing aside useless baggage and recommitting yourself to Christ now.

If there is, address the problems you face and pray about them before the Lord. In life, we bring our innermost fears and thoughts and lay them at Jesus feet.

Things are not always easy but facing it rather than hiding or running away will only make you a better person and removes a stumbling block in the time of trouble to come.

Dear Lord, just now I want to recommit my life to you. Show me your will for my life. Give me the strength to do your will for my life. Search me O God and renew me with your tender mercies. Great is your faithfulness O Lord. Amen.

Bowling

So its my first Friday of my Final year now in poly.. And well I sure had things to do.

After lesson ended at 11, I met my mentor Avemos ;) Studied an hour odd before going for lunch with Rome~

He had to leave so I went ahead for bowling with Rome. Been awhile since we spent time out together. Cos of work attachment previously and tight schedules. We had a good time indeed, glad that he helped me spot my mistakes and learnt from there. I really like the pricing in the school, just 6 bucks for 3 games. Never find that anywhere else here!

Well the score was average and good in 1 for mine. (According to own standard) And his was nice consistency. Well you can see how it helped me in the 2nd game but back to basics in 3rd game :P

For those of you that followed my blog long enough, you will realise I have not posted a picture before XD

So hopefully this would be the first of many to come right? ;)

After that we went to library cos he didnt bring his keys :O

I wanted to study the health material for the next day but was too tired and slept while he used lappy. Woke up, did care group and headed towards Care group.

Bought the groceries for youth potluck amid usual calls to mother and brother to confirm the quantity of ingredients. Taught or rather coordinated Care group later in the evening and was pleasantly surprised to see that our discussion is improving though the numbers might not be. Since afterall I didn't do too much of the talking and its a good trend we're heading towards. Still everything to God in prayer while we do our part as well ^.^

Oh and we have a new seeker too, excellent! Though he didnt come this week due to work, he has joined us last week and for activities too whenever he was free such as our badminton social. Gotta get his gf to join us more too (:

Next day, in the morning received a pleasant surprise that I was going to play the piano. Haha I wonder if my playing gave me away that it was last min but still I just did what I could and that was to give my best.

I rushed to practice the songs before I left for church and practiced there before the service started. It went along albeit moderately i guess.

Then was last min preparation for the Bible/Health quiz. It was okay and spirits were high. Went there and did more last min revision as well. When it all got started we did well and had a good lead in the Bible section. We were actually feared by some or maybe well thought of as when they didnt know and could pass the question they all chose to pass to us! And a passing comment too that I shouldn't participate next year, talk about impact.

Next part would not sound so pleasing if you have high expectations. So you could skip the paragraph at ur jurisdiction. Basically there was a break before the health part and I believed many thought we would win. I was cautious though and knew the threat that the 2nd placed team at that time posed in that area which we were rather not so ready. I guess I dont really want to elaborate on the rest here, u can always give me a call and I'll be happy to tell you cos it just too lengthy for words and hard to explain.

So kudos to Maranatha for becoming champions! (: We made them have a run for their money as we wanted to and personally I believe I did my best there as well as all my team members but okay maybe not for preparation. I could have prepared more on Thurs and Fri afternoon instead of wasting it away and all the What ifs.. But that is history and what we do is to learn from it and to do better next time isnt it?

I'll like to end with a verse that I've learnt from the study of the book of Luke, its in Luke 11:27-28 "As Jesus was saying these things, a woman in the crowd called out, "Blessed is the mother who gave you birth and nursed you. He replied, "Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it."

Indeed that is what I ought to do, to hear God's word and obey it. A simple but important lesson that at times one fails to follow. So when you're discouraged or weary just cling to this promise and you know that you are truly blessed though it may not be apparent at this time.

So until next time, Shalom.

Work attachment coming to an end

Well 5 weeks have gone by really fast. It was just a while ago when I was working at PP. Now its just 2 more days before its over. Talk about time flies. Well in that span of time many things happen actually. 1 of the most significant would be my personal testimony that I now have as a result of this. Look forward to see you there at the next Testimony Sabbath in our church. Since its the first time I'll be sharing it with almost everyone, I'll put in as many details as I can just for you all to get a clear picture as possible. After that though, maybe I'll have to think of a way to keep it short, cos they say an effective personal testimony takes only 3 mins. Or something like that..

I'll like to take this time too for thanking all the people who came to visit me as well. Though it may not seem much, it helps to brighten up my day and keep my spirits up to continue to work dynamically through the week ;)

Now I'll just talk about my workmates. In this frame of time, I've made new friends from poly as well as from workplace. And you can see the value in everyone, how people are so different and unique too. Hope they haven't influenced me in a bad way though :P Still though times have not always been smooth, it gave me a better grasp of what the working adult world was like.

On hindsight you may ask, would I have chosen to work here given the choice? My answer would be Yes. Although there are many things you could think of that which would be better in another place. Such as something related to my course, office job, shorter working hours, less problems etc. But going through the experience always teaches you many things and that is invaluable in a way that you don't learn the same things elsewhere or rather even if you do its not the same way of learning it.

Now whats my point there. It is that through all this I can see God working in my life even clearer and that is irreplaceable. Of course one could say it could always be better but well for me I trust that though things may not be ideal, with God anything is worthwhile and without regrets (:

Okay I do realise I rarely post even by my standards which is once every week or two. So I'm wondering maybe its a good idea to keep my posts short so I will post more often. You know like how some people do it~ But that can be hard for me too in a good way since you notice me spamming essays or maybe not. Perhaps some feedback and I'll see what I can do then XD

Until next time~

Work speech

Hey guys, thanks all for your prayers for my exams. I appreciate it :) Praise God too for clearing Sabbath problems for me at work each step of the way~ Well no matter what, let's do our best to stand firm in trial even when the going gets hard. Yea I know, its easier said than done. My thinking is that if we cant stand firm now in times of peace, than we wont stand a chance in times of trouble. Well get anyone u prefer to pray for you yea? I don't mind too but I know it doesn't always work this way. Still I'll be here with open arms ;)

Okay now for some stuff about work.. Here are some pick up lines supposedly that I use in work, there are no benchmarks so feel free to suggest some and I might just try it out and see how it goes. Here is how it has evolved over the past 10 days.

- Anything?

- Anything u looking for?

- Anything I can help?

- Yes?

- Can I help you?

- May I help you?

- How may/can I help you?

- Is there anything I can help you with?

- Is there anything I may help you with?

Oh and I do say Hello/Hi sir or something like that sometimes before the line. I like my most recent one, I thought of it after I saw my friend got a negative response and myself too when using "Can I help you?"

I believe that it does reflect a sense of superiority though its all in the mind. So using "may" is better supposedly though its not much of an issue with the large majority. Even though I may be using my latest pick up line I still use some of my previous ones due to habit and such.

The long lines which are 8 words can be abit hard to pull off sometimes when I dont prepare myself. Saying it too fast will mean a repetition. Saying too slow may mean a customer already walk some distance away by then.

Soo thats about it for now, there are still things to talk about but well next time :D

Take Care my friends! Let's all grow in Christ together XD

Happy Valentine's Day!

I wanted to post this yesterday but my internet failed on me so I just went to sleep :P

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A very Happy Valentine's Day my dear readers!

Wish you all a happy love life in your years ahead :)

Most importantly, God loves us. In 1 John 4:10-12 "10This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for^c our sins. 11Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us."

That is the essence of V day to me this year =)

Well just to be clear I don't have a gf/crush yet just in case anyone is

wondering or may be mistaken.

Though I don't think I'm interested just yet, sometime in the future yea?

Making friends have always been very enjoyable and its no different now.

To me, the way to be happy is to make my friends happy! :D

Well today I wore purple shirt to school and so while walking to class after lunch,

1 of my friend commented on the colour.

He said "Why today where purple? Is it cos today Valentine Day"

I replied "Purple got any significance meh?"

He replied "Got, it means everlasting".

And here I thought of everlasting love which was God's agape love for us (unconditional love).

And wanted to say its God's everlasting love but didn't.

Anyway, I thought about how wonderful it would be if I could love God continually for that would be the best for my life.

It is part of the Redeemer plan that creation should love their Creator and that we may find rest in Him who will be with us thru life whatever it may be.

I'm too preachy I know :P

Early morning

Today I woke up early in the morning~ Slightly after 6am. Well thats earlier than my usual time and in addition I only needed to wake up at 8. Well why did I wake up so early? Cos I meant to play a shogi tournament game at 6:30am :O But my opponent didn't come so oh well. It felt good waking up early doing things with a fresh mind :)

Morning was really good. Thats bcos I checked the news and it showed Liverpool beat Chelsea 1-0.

Before the game yesterday, I did hold some hope that they would win but was unsure about the chances. They came off good though. So happy for my favourite football team XD

Coupled with news yesterday that my favourite shogi player Toshiaki Kubo who is current title holder of 2 out of 7 major titles. He beat Watanabe in the 1st game of Kiou which is a best of 5 game series. All the best Kubo!

Well and few other stuff happened too in the morning all which starts me nicely for the week ahead. Watched Ps Bayu's appreciation by Balastier on youtube which was both moving and inspiring for me personally.

Today will be a long day as I know we will chiong projects as deadline is on Wednesday. Expect to be in school till rather late. Its the beginning of project deadlines, practical tests, exams and work attachment! Then FYP!

Haha, getting more busy, like the real working world and time constraint is even stronger. Well I just enjoyed my real holiday over the CNY period cos in March would be work attachment. Next holiday is in June but may be filled with projects and what not. September should be finally holidays but who knows given that its final year and we have FYP!

But okay, life is becoming different slowly but still I'll always remember you guys cos we're one big family in Christ!